By Angela Bronner, BlackVoices.com
The indomitable Jenifer Lewis –one for whom the word diva is made -- has been a formidable force in the world of drama and song for almost 30 years.

Lewis currently tears up the stage of the Broadway production of 'Hairspray' as Motormouth Maybelle, mother of Seaweed J. Stubbs, played by singer Tevin Campbell. Her ovation at the end is always one of the longest.
Here, Lewis opens up about a very real, very pervasive issue in our country: bi polar disorder (formerly manic depression.) Lewis, who created a one woman show about the illness – "Bipolar, Bath and Beyond" -- shares with us her Testimony.
Can you explain what bi-polar is?
Bi-polar is a mood disorder, where people will experience extreme highs and extreme lows including anger all the time, irritability and reckless behavior. It's very serious to control that manic behavior. People who need drama in their lives all the time, you know complaining and coming in a room loud, and inappropriate.
Self medicating to hide feelings. Yet the other piece is very important also -- it's the dark hours that people spend in bed. Getting too much sleep, not enough sleep, complete and utter depression and taking sometimes weeks, sometimes months to come out of these episodes.
So when did you first notice that something may be amiss, that you were maybe a little different than other people?
Well Angela, kinda like when I was a kid you know? I pretty much cried myself to sleep every night of my youth. I was diagnosed with this disease in the early '90s but it took my therapist about 4 or 5 years to convince me to medicate myself. So it was very difficult for her to even get inside of me to understand that there was something wrong, because being in show business, that edge, that manic behavior -- you feel you need it to function. But yes I knew, I always knew that something was wrong basically because of the depression.
How are you managing it?
I've been on medication now for I think about 12 years and that's why I feel experienced enough to speak about it now. I'm not pushing a certain medication. I'm pushing treatment because only your health care provider can work with you for your specific treatment. We're all different you see, and the one thing I want to stress about getting your individual treatment from your healthcare provider is when you get it, to stick to it. This is a life long journey. So we all have to take care of ourselves, you see. There is a site you can go to called, Bridge to a Brighter Tomorrow. And there you get information about the tools and the questions you can take to your doctor and ask. You know, explain what your symptoms are and you can get information. I recommend that, highly.
And how has this affected your family or loved ones, those close to you?
Well, [sigh] I'll be very honest with you, depression and manic behavior affects everyone around you. It affects your relationships, your children, you lovers, your husband, your mother and father. There are so many people that are affected by this – I knew a family of doctors and lawyers, a beautiful family and they had that one sister that was bi-polar and kept the family pretty much hostage to her reckless behavior. So she was the one sibling who would not take her meds. She would get on them, get off them and it's very dangerous to your health.
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When did you know that you needed help? When did you hit that brick wall?
I hit the brick wall when I lost two very close people in my life, two days apart and my grief overwhelmed me. And with that I knew I needed help. Once again I didn't want to stay in that dark, dark place.
Did someone tell you that you might need help?
See when you're manic, you're not listening. This is a chemical imbalance in the brain so you're not listening. You're not level enough to even hear people to tell you---and you know in my case being a comedian, I would just laugh it off, anything to deny that I was sick. And I don't really want to use that word but, it's a real disease.
Did you use self medication?
Most definitely, most definitely. I drank heavily in my youth and college and all that trying to just kill the feelings that were so extreme.
I know you did your stand up act "Bi-polar Bath and Beyond." Why do you choose humor and art to speak about this? Is it easier?
Most definitely. Well when I wrote "Bi-polar Bath and Beyond" I had sort of been asked to do this show at the Gay and Lesbian Center in Los Angeles and I raised $50,000 for the homeless children. And as I was doing the show I realized how really important it was. I simply wrote it because it's what I do. But when a girl came from Jet magazine and told me she had a sister that was bi-polar and she was a big fan of mine, and she read that I had the same disease that she had she was encouraged to stay on her medication and with that, one of the Oprah editors read the Jet magazine and asked me to come on and then of course I was able to relate to 60 million people that this disease, bi-polar, is manageable and treatable.
What do you think the most important thing a family member can do for someone they love who might be suffering from this?
Most definitely, the important thing is to let them know because a lot of bi-polar people don't know, they're just running amuck, they're in denial mostly, and you have to be real and see those warning signs and if you love somebody help them. Get them informed, tell them to go to the site....offer to go with them to a doctor's visit. It can be scary but the first step with any addiction, disease or sickness is to acknowledge that you have it.
So you're able to work now?
Girl I've done 60 films and 120 television shows, I'm doing alright. I adopted a little girl and she's in her third year of college. Life is good. I'm doing very well mainly because I stay on my meds and I have therapy once a week and I take care of myself. God is great.
Are you currently in 'Hairspray' now?
I certainly am, I want everyone to come to New York and see me on Broadway. I'm good darling, I bring down the house.
Anything else for our readers?
Just tell them, life is beautiful it really is. I know it sounds naïve but I'm very grateful and humbled by my success. And the reason I have my success -- which is very rare, mind you, but the reason I have my success is because I take care of myself. I went to a doctor, and I got on the medication and I stay in therapy.
Mental Health & African-American Health
May is Mental Health awareness month. Mental health in the Black community is an issue that is often ignored because:
- There is a stigma in the Black community
- The mental health establishment often mistreats blacks
- Both
Terrie Williams, a high-powered publicist who has serviced Janet Jackson, wrote of her depressive breakdown in the book 'Black Pain.' At what rate do black women suffer from depression as compared to white women?
- At the same rate
- Twice the rate
- Five times the rate
In addition to depression, African-American are more likely to suffer from certain psychological disorders particular to our community, such as:
- Bipolar disorder
- Schizophrenia
- Phobias
Getting treatment for mental health is important, as suicide is the worse result of attempting to live with an untreated illness. How high is the rate of suicide for young black men versus young white men?
- It's higher for black men
- It's the same
- It's higher for white men
In addition, black Americans are often exposed to stressors that lead to higher incidences of untreated, more severe mental health problems, such as:
- Post-traumatic stress disorder
- Job loss
- Social prejudice
With the many issues our community faces, reducing resistance to psychological treatment is of critical importance. Anti-depressant drugs may help in healing by:
- Numbing the pain of depression
- Restoring neurochemical balances in the brain
- Do they help?
What role can the black church play in mental health treatment?
- A purely positive role
- It's a mixed blessing
- There is no role for the church in mental health treatment
Therapy through professional services are important for blacks seeking mental health treatment. Yet, aside from fears and stigmas, many blacks do not receive effective professional treatment because:
- They don't have health insurance
- The medical establishment misdiagnoses African-Americans
- Both of these answers, and more
The good news is:
- There is no good news
- Black people recover at rates equal to whites with effective treatment
Mental health is an issue in our community that deserves attention and solutions. For psychological issues for ourselves and others, it is important to:
- Ignore the signals
- Create a proper treatment plan
- Wallow away in despair

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By: Kathy on 7/09/2008 7:03PM
Thank you for speaking out on this disease. My son suffers from this disease and we tried to get him help for 3 to 4 years to no avail. Everywhere we took him, we were told all sorts of different things.
He had all the systems of bipolar, but none of the
medical caretakers diagnosed it. They always told us
if we didn't feel threatened or that he would hurt himself, there was nothing they could do. It's a shame, a person has to commit a crime to be heard.
He had a bout with the law in 2003 which landed him in
prison with a 15 year sentence. He has served 5 years
of the sentence and has been in the prison hospital for 4 of the 5 years and is presently still on medication. Thank you Jennifer; hopefully your story
will help others that haven't been diagnosed yet.
I love the role you play in all your movies and plays,
God Bless You!
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By: beaulah on 7/28/2008 10:25PM
thank you Jacqueline. But the place I am in in my life is so detached from mainstream it will be difficult for anyone to understand. I am so out of touch with reality often because I am not strong enough to deal with much. Because I never feel like I belong and don't want to be where I am right now but am afraid to disconnect my affiliation because it's been a part of my life. was at one time my spiritual solace. so many people are being uplifted by it and each day it tears me down and this is because they haven't sacrificed like I have they don't know I don't have the strength to turn my back like others have. yet I die inside daily lonely ashamed guilt plagues me. I don't even feel I deserve anything good to happen to me. I dreamed twice I lose my job and the other day I did. saying something stupid. This was because I was on a feel good day. I rarely let myself get their because it always ends up with regret. so I don't get optimistic I don't believe in hope and in spite of what anyone says there is no happy ending for me. Like there wasn't for anyone in my family. we are just cursed and I see it. there is no love for me. there is not fitting for me. because whenever i think there is reality slaps me down and tells me to know my place. there are no miracles in my life. and I even fear the thought because I know if I continue this way God will make my life worse because I am ungrateful for the little blessings of walking talking touching etc. you all can't help me. I just wish I had the courage to die. and fear death at the same time. nevertheless I don't see hope
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By: Nikki Bishop on 8/24/2008 6:47PM
There is a lot of stigma present already in the Black commumity around mental health, sexuality, women's issues and of course, addictions. One of the things that I don't like is the assumption that religion is the solution, or that faith in G-d will "cure" you...what about the men who are beating their wives and children, the women who are forced into selling themselves on the streets and the people...oh, the people. I also don't like the assumption that I should swallow some sort of pill in order to take away my existing pain - it doesn't solve or take away the pain, it merely covers it up from roving eyes. I think that acceptance of the Black communities' problems and issues, including things that we don't want to see the light of day, is crucial. It's time to stop denying and start looking in the mirror - and not shunning those who wish to show the truth to the world.
Thank you, and if you wish to have more information, you can feel free to email me or check out my blog.
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By: Andrea Poppenhouse on 9/03/2008 4:30AM
Thank you for your blog site. It is one of the most real sites I have been able to find. I was diagnosed with bipolar in 2005 when all my friends and my husband were afraid I was going to kill myself or do something crazy. The police came knocking on my door and I told them I was not suicidal and to leave me alone. They would not. I asked for a female officer to come out because I was molested by my stepfather (when I was 9yrs-12yrs after which my mom decided to stay with him in spite of knowing) so I do not trust men even in uniforms! They did not send a woman police officer. Instead they broke through the door and dragged me away kicking and screaming. I kicked one of the officers (in the you-know-whats!) and had probation for a year. Spent a couple weeks trapped in a mental hospital (after 5 days in jail) and was diagnosed w/bipolar in 2005. I refused to believe I had a problem. I stayed on medication Lamictal and Seroquel for about a year or so until I suffered a siezure from changing the dosage up and down on the Lamictal. The nurse never told me the side effects can be LIFE-THREATENING so I urge you all to research your meds and follow Dr.s orders. The manic episodes of bipolar are extreme. Because of the siezure, I stopped taking medications altogether. For a few months I felt fine. Then I got all these plans to change my life. I was going to lease a farm (with what $$$???) and become the best of everything. My thoughts were racing with all the tasks I knew I could accomplish. It felt great because even on the meds I felt depressed. I did not realize this was mania sneaking up on me. I became afraid of my husband again (also happened the first time) even though he has always been wonderful, patient and kind to me in our twelve years together. I thought the police were coming after me again so I packed a few things and drove away. I drove from Florida to Tennessee in about two days. I slept only for a couple hours at a time at truck stops or on the side of isolated roads. I spent all my money and had nowhere to go. I was mean, nasty and afraid of all my close friends and family, but at the same time I loved and trusted complete strangers! After about four days I turned back and went home. But the mania continued, I would not listen to anyone trying to help me and once again, I was arrested (at gunpoint) and spent time in jail and the mental hospital. Then I still had to face trial for the harm I caused. I was facing charges that could make my new "home" a state prison for 22 years! PLEASE, if anyone even hints that you need help or should see a doctor, just go and give it a chance! I am back on meds, out of jail and the hospital (another type of jail) but I will always have the bipolar bars around me. Fortunately, now I have the key to let myself be free. As much as I hate the meds and their side effects, I see now very clearly! how much I need them and I wish I had taken them earlier in life since I remember having symptoms from a very young age. Because of the court case I was evaluated by psychiatrists and they said #1 Bipolar can be caused by childhood abuse and can be triggered by loss of a loved one or stress and #2 It is thought to be hereditary. My real father was diagnosed with it in 2000 and I believe my mother has it also, though she won't admit it. I am ashamed of what I did and I truly wish I could go back in time and remove it. When I cry about it, my husband reminds me that it was not "me" that did those terrible things. It was the bipolar me and I had no control. It is like cancer or diabetes or any other disease. It must be treated as such. With medications and a carefull watch of your feelings, you can make sure you don't land in jail or loony-bins like I have. Learn from my mistakes. Get help so you can be free. I am sure you have heard people say "being happy is a choice" and if you are depressed you should be able to "snap out of it" but if you are bipolar that is a joke. It is not that easy! I needed help and my friends and family told me to go to the doctor but I ignored them. God, how I wish I had just listened to them! My prayers go out to all of you and thank you for being you. Don't ever forget you have people who love you and need you.
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By: Andrea Poppenhouse on 9/04/2008 11:30PM
Thank you for your blog site. It is one of the most real sites I have been able to find. I was diagnosed with bipolar in 2005 when all my friends and my husband were afraid I was going to kill myself or do something crazy. The police came knocking on my door and I told them I was not suicidal and to leave me alone. They would not. I asked for a female officer to come out because I was molested by my stepfather (when I was 9yrs-12yrs after which my mom decided to stay with him in spite of knowing) so I do not trust men even in uniforms! They did not send a woman police officer. Instead they broke through the door and dragged me away kicking and screaming. I kicked one of the officers (in the you-know-whats!) and had probation for a year. Spent a couple weeks trapped in a mental hospital (after 5 days in jail) and was diagnosed w/bipolar in 2005. I refused to believe I had a problem. I stayed on medication Lamictal and Seroquel for about a year or so until I suffered a siezure from changing the dosage up and down on the Lamictal. The nurse never told me the side effects can be LIFE-THREATENING so I urge you all to research your meds and follow Dr.s orders. The manic episodes of bipolar are extreme. Because of the siezure, I stopped taking medications altogether. For a few months I felt fine. Then I got all these plans to change my life. I was going to lease a farm (with what $$$???) and become the best of everything. My thoughts were racing with all the tasks I knew I could accomplish. It felt great because even on the meds I felt depressed. I did not realize this was mania sneaking up on me. I became afraid of my husband again (also happened the first time) even though he has always been wonderful, patient and kind to me in our twelve years together. I thought the police were coming after me again so I packed a few things and drove away. I drove from Florida to Tennessee in about two days. I slept only for a couple hours at a time at truck stops or on the side of isolated roads. I spent all my money and had nowhere to go. I was mean, nasty and afraid of all my close friends and family, but at the same time I loved and trusted complete strangers! After about four days I turned back and went home. But the mania continued, I would not listen to anyone trying to help me and once again, I was arrested (at gunpoint) and spent time in jail and the mental hospital. Then I still had to face trial for the harm I caused. I was facing charges that could make my new "home" a state prison for 22 years! PLEASE, if anyone even hints that you need help or should see a doctor, just go and give it a chance! I am back on meds, out of jail and the hospital (another type of jail) but I will always have the bipolar bars around me. Fortunately, now I have the key to let myself be free. As much as I hate the meds and their side effects, I see now very clearly! how much I need them and I wish I had taken them earlier in life since I remember having symptoms from a very young age. Because of the court case I was evaluated by psychiatrists and they said #1 Bipolar can be caused by childhood abuse and can be triggered by loss of a loved one or stress and #2 It is thought to be hereditary. My real father was diagnosed with it in 2000 and I believe my mother has it also, though she won't admit it. I am ashamed of what I did and I truly wish I could go back in time and remove it. When I cry about it, my husband reminds me that it was not "me" that did those terrible things. It was the bipolar me and I had no control. It is like cancer or diabetes or any other disease. It must be treated as such. With medications and a carefull watch of your feelings, you can make sure you don't land in jail or loony-bins like I have. Learn from my mistakes. Get help so you can be free. I am sure you have heard people say "being happy is a choice" and if you are depressed you should be able to "snap out of it" but if you are bipolar that is a joke. It is not that easy! I needed help and my friends and family told me to go to the doctor but I ignored them. God, how I wish I had just listened to them! My prayers go out to all of you and thank you for being you. Don't ever forget you have people who love you and need you.
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